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Sunday, 15 November 2009

Joy unspeakable

Remember http://rtyn.xanga.com/715799097/unexpressable/ ?

On friday I received an email from my manager which has my testimonial attached. My friends were with me and we were quite shocked that it was in the form of a softcopy. It was just a simple Microsoft Word document which does not have the company's letterhead so we were like... o.O

It seemed like a normal doc which can be typed by Tom, Dick or Harry so it definitely would not be recognisable by any firms out there. I was quite disappointed why things didn't turn out the way I thought it would be. I questioned Jesus during my bewildered and upset period. When I was alone.

After much encouragement from my friends, I gave it my all; I sent an email, requesting for a hardcopy. Spent an hour typing that few words. My friends were definitely a big courage-booster during that hour. If they weren't there, I don't think I would send that email.
Bao Yun was reali funny. Out of the blue, she popped the question, "Rachael, what happened to you?"

I could imagine my image in her heart being destroyed because the always calm Rachael is suddenly in a fluster and so wishy-washy.

To sum it up, this whole episode regarding the testimonial really made me step out of my comfort zone and to forgo whatever awkwardness I always held on to. Terrible feeling when the email was sent but 脸不可以当饭吃

Thinking back, I recalled what Pastor Rony said. What the lyrics of the song wrote.
God answers prayer in His time. During the period when it seemed like God is not answering our prayers, he is actually building up our character, our faith. Sometimes it is also for us to pray more and to trust Him more.

I was actually more upset why did I not keep faith with Him. Why did I let disappointment and negative thoughts fill my being. So from that point on, I began to tune my mind back to the positive state and also to keeping praying and trusting Him because "God has the power to do what He has promised." Romans 4:2 - I'm fully persuaded.

So ladies and gentlemen:-

"Hi Rachael, I will have it mailed to your house next week.Have a good weekend ahead. Best regards."

The reply that I have been looking so forward to. Now, here's yet another reason for me to shout "Praise the Lord!!"
"And I will say that You are good, for all the miracles You've done have brought me joy. All the hope I have, I place in You right now."

Sunday, 08 November 2009

Lighter's Link

Wednesday, 04 November 2009

MSN

The MSN Messenger in my laptop is officially down.

I deleted it straight from my start program and later deleted the files relating to MSN in my C: drive and everywhere I can find it. Now I can't even reinstall it because the website keeps saying I already have the MSN Essential (the latest messenger version) in my system.
After 1 whole wk (hours upon hours) of deleting, searching and reinstalling, I give up. No more offline messages and chatting online. I wonder what should I do during the peak project period.
SOMEBODY, HELP !!!!

Tuesday, 03 November 2009

Unexpressable

My soul is burning deep within me and I JUST WANNA SCREAM THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!

I ended my internship in April 09 and my manager agreed to write me a testimonial. Till 31st Oct 09, I still haven't gotten it. Throughout this period, I have sent a few emails to someone in-charge of the interns in the HR dpt; no reply.

I was rather depressed and sad because it would be such a waste if I couldn't get a testimonial from such a well-known organisation.

I actually gotten over it. I still consoled myself by saying it is alright even if I don't get it; it is beyond my control anyway. BUT. My friend and I brought up the topic of getting a testimonial from IRAS while waiting for a call to come in. That's when the sad feeling came back. Felt like the world is crumbling. I prayed about it for God to help me move on.

Just when I thought that all hope is gone, my pastor preached a message on the 5 action steps of faith.

1) Read the Word of God
2) Believe the Word of God
3) Receive the Word of God
4) SAY the Word of God
5) ACT on the Word of God

I have been doing the 1st 3 almost everyday since last year; reading the Bible and believing God.

On 2nd Nov, I FINALLY took the 4th n 5th step of faith.

"Then Jesus told His disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up."
Luke 18:1

I emailed my manager and prayed about it. I AM confident that I WILL get my testimonial. But on the other hand, I couldn't help but to think about it occasionally after I've sent the mail. So quickly, I confessed the positive and left everything to my God.

"Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours."
Mark 11:24

"This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us - whatever we ask - we know that we have what we asked of Him"
1 John 5:14-15

The verse above is really important to me/my soul/my spirit.

It is what keeps me going.

3rd Nov, checked my hotmail.
*Tight chest, palpitating heartbeat

A reply from my manager stating that she has sent it long ago, she will check with the HR and get back to me.

YESH !! Praise the Lord she did not choose to NOT reply me.

I cannot express how I am feeling right now, I cannot put across my gratitude in words.

My Jesus is so good to me and His word stands forever. Amen!

"Heaven and earth will pass away, but My Words will never pass away."
Mark 13:31

As surely as the sun rises from the east, He is worthy of my praises.

Thursday, 29 October 2009

Last day of work

Halfway through the training, I was quite determined to quit the job.

Dry concepts, boring 9 days training, 2 heartattack-giving quizzes + stress-inducing role-play. (I weren't that hardworking towards my studies; sticking those tabs)

Boy. 29 days have since passed and I said goodbye today.

We seemed like some super star when we left because almost the whole call-centre stood up to wave goodbye to us.

I hate the feeling of leaving a place where memories are buildup and friendships are fostered. The sense of familiarity being taken away is really hard to take but isn't this what life is about?

You are assigned to a place, spend your days/wks/mths over there, made some real good friends, got yourself so familiarised with how things operate and suddenly, it's time to say goodbye.

I don't like that but I'll get used to it.

My fridge is full of ferrero rochers.

I enjoy this job more than the one in EY. This is easy money and I am able to run to my supervisors for help, talk to my friends when there isn't any call, go for break as and when, fool around with the friends I've made during this period and the list goes on....

Goodbye.